I have lost focus on my concentration — sometimes the burden of thinking-doing things differently in a community with a lot of old weight that bears so heavy on people that it manifests as hate and anger gets too much for me to bear and I start drifting towards such behaviour myself even as a part of me is left observing, humbly and wretchedly at the same time, what hurt and fear can do, a lot of which I have too. I pray that I regain my concentration because I have indeed started something and I need to be at the helm for sometime… I know that with concentration such a burden is but an opportunity, but requires tremendous strength, more than I can imagine and more than what I have right now.